Back in Singapore :)

Yes, title says it all. I am back in Singapore. I havent met up with many friends, probably because i hardly have any. well since last saturday, sleeping was a problem for me. I dont know why i cant sleep. Its so fucking annoying. I just lie on the bed for a few hours and i still cant fall asleep. Maybe its because I just cant stop thinking. Doubts just couldnt stop appearing in my mind and i dont know why. I just cant help it but feel so insecure. I dont want anything to change even if there might be someone better out there. No one is perfect and I am very satisfied with what I have now. :)

*QOTD

If you expect nothing, everything is good. - Ash

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Saying bye is SO HARSH!

Saying bye is so harsh! Im supposed to be celebrating exams are over and my last paper wasn't that bad after all. All thanks to Mr Dilworth! Finally, he did something for us throughout the WHOLE year. Thank GOD no wait THANK YOU MR DILWORTH. He went through parliament and reckon that we memorize it. We did and it came out exactly the way he said it would. After the paper, we had to stay till 7.30pm as we had to wait for England to finish their exams. What crap. Not like i would give them answers so that they could score better than me.

Well, mary nilla and me had dinner together as nilla is leaving tmr. As usual, we had so much fun! Saying bye is soooo hard! We couldnt bear to leave in the taxis. We were like hugging on the streets. Taxi drivers were looking but we didnt care. We all knew after today, it might take some time before we see each other again! aww so fucking sad! I dont want her to leaveeee. :( I almost cried when i saw her text msg she sent me after she left. We talked about it and we might meet again in August/September. Mary is gona get her own apartment so we could all crash in her apartment the next time we meet. All the year 13s are leaving these two weeks. Two koreans already left. Hmm We didnt say a proper good bye at all. Less than 2 weeks till i leave. Funny thing is that Im happy to go back to singapore but at the same time, i dont want to leave Shanghai. I know im gonna miss Rego so much!!

So many thoughts hit me all of a sudden. I realised its really time for all of us to leave Shanghai and move on. Had prom yesterday, some things happened but i must say its was a good and fun night. We stayed out till 5 in the morning haha. Nilla is leaving on tuesday. So fucking sad. For the past few mths, people would see the three of us every weekend together partying away. People call me the 'pimp' and if they see me alone, they would ask me, where're your girls? We always had so muchhhhhh fun together, getting drunk together, helping each other and hating people together. Some people think they can replace nilla when she leave and hang out with us but i dont think so. 2 more weeks till i leave Shanghai and the last weekend would be sooooo boring. No more mary and nilla. I dont think im going anywhere that weekend. I have my last paper tmr but i cant be bothered studying for it.

So much memories. From disliking Mary to hanging out with her and then liking her. I remember when nilla first came to school, I didn't talk to her till like 2 weeks later. They told me theres a new hot swedish girl in school, I wasn't that excited as i thought hot girls wouldnt be friendly at allll. We went out clubbing the first time and i realised shes different from the typical hot girls lol. Shes really friendly, funny and doesnt have the 'air' like other girls. Well, then we stopped hanging out because mary broke up with berkin. Things started changing from then on. Well, things somehow sorted out by itself. Steff hangs out with her bf's friends. Berkin hangs out with people from his previous school and Mary, nilla and me started hanging out together. All of us dont really talk to each other anymore. Well, for me, i was kinda stuck in the middle between the three groups of people because i still talk to them in school and on msn.

Alright enough of emo-ing. Time for pictures.

SERIOUSLY THIS SCHOOL IS SO FUCKING LOUSY. How is it even possible that the teacher only teach half the syllabus and send students for examinations. The teachers don't do jack shit in school and our parents pay 40 000SGD a year. This is SO fucking ridiculous. Im glad i read through extra stuff during my revision OR i will so fucking kill you. There is another paper on Monday, the teacher didn't teach the whole year, just gave us like 500 pieces of notes and expect us to read it ourselves. Didn't even bother telling us which is important. I bet we know the stuff better than the teachers by now. Pay me 3000pounds a month, I would read through the notes and I can be a teacher too. Coming to school at 8.30 everyday, go outside of school to have a cig, come into class stinking of smoke, give the students some notes from the internet to read and surf the net till 3.45. I will do that 3000 pounds a mth too. seriously, screw you old british men.

the temptation is back again and this time i know its gona do alot of damage. anywayyy im sooo god damn lazy to study for my business paper tmr. 3 more papers and IM DONE. I must say I CANT WAIT FOR ALL MY PAPERS TO FINISH. Last week was hell for me. 5 papers in a week and I had 3 in a day! I must say I am quite satisified with my history and business papers but Math was a total diaster. Prom is next week and Im glad i finally graduated from high school. The last prom ive been to was secondary school and it was kinda shit. I really hope it would be a blast. I have my last paper the following monday but people are all planning to go party till dawn after prom. I really want to go but I guess I can't cause I dont want to be hungover on a Sunday where i am supposingly to be studying!

anywayyy, good luck for my 3 hours paper tmr!

1 more week to freedom and 21 days more to SINGAPORE!!!!!!

bye bye to shanghai and welcome to singapore really soonnnnnn. Its so fucking contradicting, i hate leaving Shanghai but at the same time, i want to go back to singapore. Everything is so expensive in Singapore and my nightlife would be goneee :( no more open bars, no more cheap cigs, no more getting tipsy, no more driver and no more dvds. :( basically, no more A.S.K life. I will miss some of my friends here for sure and its so fucking sad that we'll probably not see each other for the rest of our lifes. Im coming back whenever i could to see them if they're still gona be here. my exams are almost done, i have three more to go and im fucking done with high school.. like finally lol. I screwed up my math exam soooooo bad so im gona retake it when im in NS with help from someone of cos :P hahahaaaa. Well, i got my enlistment letter and I am sooooo fucking disappointed that I didn't get into Police Academy. I really hope I do make some friends in there as I really need more friends!!!

wellll, basically, ive been studying/clubbing and talking to sleepyhead on msn :P cant wait to finish my exams, got intoxicated and go back to seeeee sleepyhead hahahahahaaa

Yay, Im getting a new laptop from my dad for my birthday! My current one is so slow and full of virus. Hmm like someone said, its probably old like me already. Haha. I feel so blessed all of a sudden. I get whatever I want from my parents most of the time. Ill probably repay them by not wasting their money on senseless stuff like clothes and making them happy by smoking less :) Well, Im smoking so much lesser now and I wouldnt have been able to do it without you ;) thank you lol. (you know who you're)

Well, I dont know whether im gonna throw a party next weekend cause its so troublesome but we'll see. :D