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What an unexpected day. 27th 28th November 2006. These two days almost changed my everything. Perhaps my future, my family and my life. I think the saying, chuan dao qiao tou zi ran zhi is quite true. Theres always a solution that would solve problems. I want to make my every decision together with darling from now onwards. I believe she has more sense than I have.

She hated games but i love them and they ruined me. All i could say is she is the one for me and she is always there for me when i needed her. I love you darling. Thank you... She always motivated me, cheered me up and gave me sensible advise. I think the problem is partially solved now although its not fully solved.

Thank you darling. I just read through every letter you wrote to me and Im so touched. Im so touched by what you said to me just now. Thank you for everything. I love you...

Tomrrow is the 27th. It has been one year since I came to Shanghai. Im probably partying out there this time last year. I didnt want to come last year because I didnt know if i would adapt to the environment here and stuff like that. I didnt want to leave the place i lived in for the past 17 years. I liked what I had last year but I was wrong. I didnt know people needed changes and people needs to move on. They cant possibly stick around their teenage life all their life. Everyone has grown up and everyone moved on.

If you asked me whether I regreted coming here. I would say no. I learned many things here. I learned to be more realistic and I learned how to be an adult. There are some things that you dont like and theres nothing that you can do about it so you have to grow with it and get over it. Ive learned what to say and what not say infront of others. These are things I think ive learned from BISS.

Ive learned how to care and protect the girl that you love. Ive learned to be more sensitive at times and not to say the things I shouldnt be saying. Although Ive learned these things, I still fail not to apply them when Im with darling. :) I feel so carefree when im with her. Ill forget all the unhappiness I have. :) i love you darling.

Time really doesnt wait for people. Im already 18 now the first time in unity seems like yesterday. I could still remember the happy times we had very clearly. I miss unity and my friends ive made from unity. Christmas is near and Im coming back with my darling. I guess we would have lots of fun together. :)

Haha this is the funny poster we saw at the art exhibition a few weeks back. Uploaded some pictures into my computer and saw this picture.

We collected darling's airtickets yesterday afternoon. :) Shes prepared for her trip to Singapore. Hehe. We were in a park and we saw some people sitting by a pond and fishing. It looks quite fun so I told darling i wanted to fish. We fished for about half an hour and catch three fishes. Haha. We let the fishes go after that because neither of us wanted to keep the fishes. I think the fishes wouldnt live long so no point in keeping them.




We tooked a train to Pudong after that which is the other side of Shanghai. Sat by Huang Pu River and we saw this ship going by with a very big board on it. One side of it is how to advertise on this screen and the other side is the screen. I took a picture when it was playing the advertisement of gatsby.




Slept early last night so i woke up so early to blog. Happy birthday reeve anyway..

first of all.. to yh: = =

hahahaha. i have nothing to blog...... i only know my exams are just around the corner and i aint even prepared for anything. shit~~

ok bye bye.

Just saw a message by stranger and it reminded me of something that happened today in school. Was having busines studies today and fat eastwood came into the class and talked to ms alback about some shit. when shes about to leave the room, she took a glance at me and said 'hi stranger' then giggled and left the room. BAI CHI. like that also song?~

~_~ Im school now and saw the same old white angmoh faces the moment i stepped into the school. Seeing westerners in shanghai is such a common thing. I see them everywhere. In my estate, out in the streets, school, cafes, internet cafes even in my dreams. I really really dislike them now. The moment i saw my form teacher, i was like eeeeeeek.

I logged into my game last night and realised some item and money were lost. I knew who did it and asked the only guy who had my password other than me on msn. He said no then i said ok fine. I knew he was lying obviously then he started saying that im accusing him and stuff like that. he took my items and i didnt even say much about it and there he was complaining. I then started a quarrel with him and then ignored him later because i was too tired and knew the quarrel wouldnt come to an end. Wouldnt go into details about the quarrel then.

I knew what kind of person he was but didnt know he was to this extend. He thinks when he takes advantage of me and i just keep quiet, I wouldnt know and is really silly. So what if he grown up in the streets and is street smart? LOL maybe he really thinks hes that smart. Enough of him, i wouldnt mix with him anymore anyway.

School is so boring. Mondays are always half day for me and wednesdays are always off day for me. I would occasionally just pop in school for the whole day on mondays and wednesdays. I really serious need to quit gaming but i dont know why i couldnt~~ I cant help to double click on the game icon whenever im at home. I know its bad for me and im losing more than i gain in the game. Im wasting my time, my sleep and my studies and the only thing I gain is something would sparkle a quarrel with my darling~

Gonna go for lessons in 10 minutes. Bye.

hehe.. got well already. no more lao sai-ing.. finally~~ met up with darling these few days~~ some happy days we spent together.. :)

soooooooooooooooo happy.. =) we walked around the parkson area today after dinner in circles but we still felt happy and kept joking around. hehee.

bought something today~~~~~~~ will show you guys when im back~~~~ hehehe... gonna sleep soon. school tmr. :)

Im still getting the stomachache and i think its becoming worse. Had very bad gastric pain this afternoon which made me almost crying out in pain when i was in the taxi with darling.

I dont have appeitite although i still feel hungry. There is like bubbles in my stomach and ass every now and then. Have been having this since yesterday morning.. I think ill sleep early today.

Thank you darling for taking good care of mee. =) Muacks.

Arg... Lao sai the whole day and waking up so many times for the toilet surely doesnt feel good. Thats what im going through now.. Feeling so hungry and still kept shitting. Went out with darling yesterday to get her visa but i overslept and made her wait for very very long. Im sorry..

I slept at 7+ yesterday night and just woke up with nothing to do now.. Im waiting for sunrise so i could go out to get something to eat. I think ill buy jian bing. hehe. Darling used to buy that for me for breakfast last time when I was still on her bus. :)

Ill go buy it now.. so damn hungry already. Bye..//

3 more weeksssssss~~~~~

4 more weeks~~!!!! 4 more weeks till im going back home. And this time, Im going back with no worries and no unhappiness. Darling is going back with me :) When I went back during the summer holiday, i was pretty worried what darling would do during her free time. This time, shes going back with me and Im really happy. =D

I would be darling's tour guide and bring her around singapore although i dont really know singapore well. We would have fun no matter what. =D she would meet mer who helped us a lot all along and darling would even be staying at her house. Thank you mermer. HAHHAAA.

We would go do her visa this thursday and wait for the day to come. Its really fast. :D Muacks. I love you darling~~~~~~~~~~ See you guys in 4 weeks time. MUHAHAHA.

Back to the old life. School as usual and no late nights for games. No more going to the wangba during weekdays. :) My parents would be happy, teachers would be happy, she would be happy and I would be happy. Although games might give me happiness as well but the happiness and satisfaction I would get from my school and girlfriend is totally different.

Im in school now waiting for lessons to begin and decided to blog. Damn. I cant read blogs here again in china but its alright. I could just log into our blogs and read it.

Well, my life wasnt all about games for the past three weeks. Darling came over to my house and we spent some time together although most of the time I fell asleep. We went over to the Arts museum on the 5th which was a Sunday. It was quite fun and the things that were exhibited were really interesting. Some of it was just plain messing around with technology but it was really fun. There were a few interesting posters that were put up which were really funny. I only had a picture of one which ill put up later tonight cause im in school now.

It shows a picture of the nike's tick then it wrote 'Impossible is nothing' and then the addidas signwith 'Just do it'. They did the same with Macdonalds and Kfc and some other popular brands that were rivals. There was this other interesting room that had mirrors all around the room. its really hard to explain it but its really fun. Hahaha.. And one more thing before I go.. I caught darling on screen~!!! Shes mine. Hehe. Only she knows what Im talking about. =)

I regretted.. I really regretted.. I didnt know stuff would turn out like this.. Ive got a friend who himself was a life example of his girlfriend breaking up with him because of games and he told me to quit gaming.. I didnt listen. I didnt care. I was too addicted.. I didnt care about the feelings of the people around me.. I was selfish.

I didnt care about anyone's feelings.. All i care about was my game.. I was too into it. I slept during the day and played all night.. I know she wasnt happy about it and I didnt really care about her.. I thought the unhappiness would go away after sometime. I was wrong. Very wrong. I took her for granted...

Im sorry darling... I would start going back to my life from tmr onwards. No more late nights. The game made me blind.. It made it leave the reality world. I was too into the cyber world... Im sorry darling.. I love you.. The moment i heard what you told me.. I couldnt control myself.. I felt like telling you im sorry and make you a promise but i didnt have the courage to do that because i disappointed you too much..

I wouldnt dare to make another promise but actions speak louder than words.. I love you darling...

Im Back. Hasn't been blogging for a long long time. Nothing much happened with my life except that i didnt go to school all week and that I went to Ningbo with my girlfriend last sunday.

The university isnt that bad except for its hostel. Its so damn small. A little room with a bed, toilet, tv and desk. Thats all. Theres not much walking space at all. Hopefully if i go there, they would allow me to rent a house myself.

Didnt go school all week last week and Ive been either at the cybercafe or at home sleeping. Was really tired and I dont know why. Would usually sleep the whole day and go wake up in the middle of the night with nothing else to do. I know I neglected darling. I know she felt bad and I would really try to improve. I love you darling. :(

Well, I can view blogs again here so Ill continue updating. Love you darling. :)