HMM

gonna say sorry to 2 of my best friends first of all. I was reminded that i once had fights with both of my best friends. HMM. I cant remember that i did though. Maybe my mind full of my gf so i forgot the unhappy times with my friends. I only remember happy times with my friends and not the unhappy times. :) I know i was too guai lan when i was younger. Im sorry. =P

Im going to Beijing tmr. Im so excited about it.I duno why though. Maybe Beijing is a city with loads of history. Omg, im such a historic person now. I really want to see Mao Ze Dong's body but his 'house' is under renovation. :( I always think Beijing is a modern city but still full of historical sites. Ill be away for 3 days and ill miss darling loads. :P

I feel so blessed suddenly. I have a great family, understanding and wonderful girlfriend and a bunch of friends who would still miss me even though we hasnt seen each other for a few months. They never fail to make me smile. Thanks God for putting these people in my life.

Alright, i have to start packing for my trip tmr. Bye

Life goes on

i dont really know how to describe my feelings now. Im feeling so guilty and fustrated at my family members. I had neglected someone really important in my life and at the same time pissing my family members off. My gf and my family are the most important people in my entire life and they all have the same place in my heart. I really dont want to neglect and disappoint anyone of them. Im sorry if i did. :(

Ok, enough of all the emotional stuff. Happy timess. I went fishing today again. I finally learned and managed to put the earthworm on the hook. I guess I relied too much on darling whenever shes with me. Thanks! Caught a lot of small fishes and only one normal size fish. The uncles said the weather isn't right so fishes are'nt so easy to catch. I brought home 2 small fishes and one 10cm fish which died on my way back home. I just threw the fishes into a tank with my lobster and the lobster cut the bigger fish into smaller pieces and ate it. The head is gone and it looks so disgusting. Anyway, i bought a new fishing rod and its the type which i could catch bigger fishes which are about 1-2 kg. I guess i would try it out this sunday when im back from Beijing.

Oh my sister is here in Shanghai and we're gonna go to Beijing this wednesday and Ill go to Hangzhou with darling once again for a short holiday. Gonna sleep now. Good nighttt

Im sorry about today darling.

I LOVE YOU.

Its getting so fuking bored. Exams are over. Ive got nothing to do all day when darling is working. :( got nothing to do at night. I guess ill just go fishing whenever im free. My sister is coming this thurs so things wouldnt get so bored when im home. My results should be fine if I think ive got the right points for history and maths. I went fishing today but didn't managed to catch anything. Ill go fishing again tmr and hope i could catch something nice.

Well, got my computer back again and blogger.com is in chinese. Its alright though as my mandarin IMPROVED. All thanks to Moxiang. Got no games to play except GunBound which is getting boring cause i aint got my aimbot. :( I need to get a jobbb. Its so bored and i dont want to live off my mum's pocket. :P i want to get a motorbikeee. I thought of selling Yang rou chuan but its so stupid. I have to stand by the roadside every night and run whenever i see the police coming. Maybe i should introduce Singapore's satay here. Guess it would sell really well.

The weather in Shanghai is getting terribly hotter each day. I get extremely fustrasted whenever the weather is hot. Poor darling would have to bear with my temper. Sorry :P

THIS BOND WE'VE BUILT

I still can't sleep :( guess i wouldnt sleep for tonight. Im all prepared for my examinations tmr. Well, i was lying down on the bed just now and was thinking about all the people i met these 19 years of my life. Maybe my sis is right. Life long friends usually come from secondary school and not from tertiary education. My sister could be considered as an 'above-average' student in Singapore and is in university now so she could tell me life experience on how to deal with situations. I always talk to her when i have problems in school and she would come up with solutions for me.

BTW, this entry is gonna be boring and its all about my life. If you're looking for an interesting entry with an happy ending, left click the red box at the right top of your screen. This is my blog and I treat it as my 'friend' so i talk to it and not feed readers with interesting stories.

Primary school memories are so 'plastic' to me. I could hardly remember much from primary schools. Memories from secondary school are like yesterday to me and i guess i would remember the happy days for life.

Unity Secondary School. I was enrolled into unity secondary school in 2001 and was in class 1/9 i think. Didnt have much friends that i still keep in contact from 1/9 and 2/10 except for a few here and there. I guess I was too 'guai lan' during my sec 1 and 2 days. Yin Hon doesnt like me back then. LOL.

3/12. Wonderful class. I guess it was from there that i had the closest friends and thats where i had my happy days. Too happy perhaps that i got retained in sec 3. I got to know quite a few friends that i still keep close contact with. Yin hon and Eddie. I was really close with Yh, Kevin and Eugene Lim when i was 15 and we were hooligans in school. LOL. Guess i was still too young that time, fighting, smoking in the toilet during recess and even during classes, arguing with teachers... Teachers looked down on us and we didnt care. No one cared infact. Maybe only Alton did. Everyone was doing their own stuff during classes. Sleeping, chatting, smsing, sneaking to toilets, vandalising on tables... blah. Got to know Reeve as well but didnt get close to him till im 16 and we started going to Sparks.

Well, got retained at sec 3 while yinhon managed to pass 3 subjects and go to sec4. damn. :P I was 16 and still very rebellious. Arguments with teachers, swearing at Ms Pok and Mr VJ, sleeping during classes and not doing homework. LOL. 3/10. It wasn't that bad. Got to know some new friends and I still keep in contact with them. Managed to go on to sec 4/9.

Thats when the fun times came. Yin Hon, Eddie and Rajan came back to join me for secondary 4! :P It was fun. Thats when i started building really close friendships with Yin Hon and Eddie. We looked at girls together, bullied people together :P and bullied Ms koh together. Fun times.

Reeve Tan. We were really close since 16. Where we went clubbing together, got drunk together, had fights together and laughed at stupid people together. We built a strong friendship since then and we still do the same things whenever i go back to Singapore.

I was then told by my Dad in May that i needed to go to Shanghai at the end of the year. I was totally devastated. I had to leave my friends, my life and my everything in Singapore. I had to start all over again in Shanghai. I had to adapt to everything there. New school, new friends and new environment. I couldn't accept it. :(

Let me fast forward and move on the days when Im in Shanghai. I came to BISS and thats where i knew darling. I did have some friends in BISS but the friendship could never be compared to what I had back home. We were all from different countries and could never be that close to share everything. I had a friend, June where i would go out with him on occasions. Hes korean and i hate the onion smell on him. The last time i met up with him was last April and hes gone now. Back to his country i think. He didnt even tell me. No one knows where he is now. I was kicked out of BISS because of my attendance and I went to Rego.

Got to know some friends in Rego but I don't even contact them now. They love stuffing shit in their brains so I wouldn't go anywhere near them. Guess we wouldn't even keep in contact after our high school and we would go separate ways.

So, i aint got a strong friendship in my high school life but Ive got strong bonds with friends like Yh, Eddie, Reeve and those from 3/10. I treasure the friendship and a BIG thanks to those who still remember me as a friend. :)

Im so fucked. I intended to sleep at 2am and now its 4.16am and i still couldnt sleep. :( i laid on the bed reading my history stuff till im tired and everytime i off the lights i couldnt sleep. im almost all set for the history exam tmr. Done all my reading and memorising but i still couldnt sleep. Intended to wake up at 8 tmr to continue but i just couldnt sleep. Got mechanics and business studies examinations on thurs so i need more sleeeeeeep. :( Sigh. I guess its the red bull+ coffee + sport drinks that made me so energetic. So people, if you want late nights, try it. Your mind wouldnt stop thinking. =/

Examinations Stressssssssssssss

I was talking to my mum about my future just now. Where i want to stay and what i want to be in the future. I told her i wanted to stay in Shanghai and I wanted to go to an international school to be a teacher. She asked me to complete my high school education first before deciding what i want to be and what im gonna study for my universities. I really dont know how i would do for my exams. She said there are so many jobs available when I grow older and that maybe i could get a better than being a teacher in an international school. HMM. A teacher here gets a salary of 26,000 RMB(S$5200) which is much higher than the average amount of office worker both in Singapore and Shanghai. It isnt a bad deal afterall right.

Btw, that isn't my point of this entry. I was in the toilet shitting just now and was thinking. Why do some people work so little hours and do some little work but get so high salary? on the other hand, the yang rou chuan man work so long hours and do so much hard work and get such low salary. Yeah, its the amount of education one received right? Once someone makes a mistake when hes young and decide not to study, he would have to slog for the rest of his life. While people who makes the right decision or have a better family background when they are young would have the privilege to sit in his office and maybe play with computer games all day. Its the degree that counts :(

Life is never fair and the fucking sad thing is that i have to accept it. :( SOOOOOOOO.


COMMUNISM ROCKS.

CHEERS TO MAO ZE DONG AND KARL MARX

Everything would be fair in an communist country. Someone bring Mao back to life.

PS: Please, im just kidding. Dont put me behind bars, President Bush and Mr Lee Kuan Yew.

I needddd to concentrateeeeeeee......... :(

2 papers tmrrrrrrrr. 25 hrs from now...... i guess i could only sleep for 5 hrs and study 20 hours from now on...... Damn it Weimar Republic and Hitler.

Thursday 2pm and Im free once again. WEEEEEEEEEEEE

Im sick again =/

My legs were weak when i met up with darling just now. No, i didnt stuff my brain with shit this time. Im really sick. History is on wednesday and Im sick now. Lady Luck isn't with me:( Slept 4 hrs just now and I have to start studying now. Cant play UNO with yh anymore. LOL. I need to have self disciplinee........ Gonna leave the computer alone and start studying till daylight~!

HEIL HITLER~!!!!!!

4th June 2007

1 year and 3 months! Been so long (: We're going out tonight to celebrate it perhaps. Ha. Nothing much to blog about.

I was eating yang rou chuan outside my estate yesterday night and a young couple came to eat in a car. The young lady is pretty and pregnant and the young man is decent looking. They drove over to eat yang rou chuan and everytime i see such young Shanghainese couple, i always envy them. Especially when the wife is pregnant. Both of them must have a decent paying job as they could a car and probably a house. I really envy such couples. So sweet and happy together. Hopefully i could be like them someday. (: