Life goes on

i dont really know how to describe my feelings now. Im feeling so guilty and fustrated at my family members. I had neglected someone really important in my life and at the same time pissing my family members off. My gf and my family are the most important people in my entire life and they all have the same place in my heart. I really dont want to neglect and disappoint anyone of them. Im sorry if i did. :(

Ok, enough of all the emotional stuff. Happy timess. I went fishing today again. I finally learned and managed to put the earthworm on the hook. I guess I relied too much on darling whenever shes with me. Thanks! Caught a lot of small fishes and only one normal size fish. The uncles said the weather isn't right so fishes are'nt so easy to catch. I brought home 2 small fishes and one 10cm fish which died on my way back home. I just threw the fishes into a tank with my lobster and the lobster cut the bigger fish into smaller pieces and ate it. The head is gone and it looks so disgusting. Anyway, i bought a new fishing rod and its the type which i could catch bigger fishes which are about 1-2 kg. I guess i would try it out this sunday when im back from Beijing.

Oh my sister is here in Shanghai and we're gonna go to Beijing this wednesday and Ill go to Hangzhou with darling once again for a short holiday. Gonna sleep now. Good nighttt

Im sorry about today darling.

I LOVE YOU.